It’s official, I am an adult. And yes it has taken me a whole three weeks for me to figure this out because I was twenty on the 29th December but these things take time to come to terms with! But despite my inward struggles about my new found adulthood, it got me thinking, what do I want to do in my twenties?
If I’m being honest, my teenage years weren’t exactly amazing, in fact they were horrendous and that makes me more determined to make this decade of my life the best years ever before I have to settle down and become a respectable adult (or as close to one as I can be) and do all those adultness things that are required but until they I have a plan for this new decade of my life!
For as long as I can remember, I have had a bucket list which has varied between being in my head and being on paper but the time has come for my bucket list to take form into a real life… thing. In six months time I will be leaving Liverpool for pastures new and there is no time like the present to get off of my ass and get on with it! So without further ado I give you my new and reformed blog where I will be living my bucketlist and documenting how it goes, as well as documenting the ups and downs of everyday life too!
Name:BeverleyDate:Saturday 8th Jun, 2013 04:33Colorgenics Number:5/1/7/0/3/2/6/4/
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go ‘somewhere’ else to perhaps experience that little extra ‘understanding’.
You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn’t seem to work, then try something different.
Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.
You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can ‘Let your hair down’ and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.
Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a ‘fantasy land’ but unfortunately ‘fantasy land’ is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.
It is extremely creepy how true this all is…